Neji and Kiba
I'm sad, Kurenai is not going well and I can not do anything to help. I can not even help to know if the baby is still present or not. I feel so helpless not being able to help. I can only stand by and watch it suffer from uncertainty.
I'm back home alone with Neji, father was arrested and questioned about the death of Hanabi. There are reasons to suggest that could have caused his death. It is rather vague, they refused to tell us everything. Neji tried to go ask for more detail on Kakashi, but they have denied him access the office because he is too busy having qu'Asuma is not there.
I'm all confused, Kiba starts to become as confused as me. He is very angry lately and keeps saying incoherent grunts that come out by him uncontrollable. I fear that the authorities are still a threat and they might hurt him. I went to see Hanna while he trained with Shino this morning she told me it was too quiet at home, as if enthusiasm for a plan or to think very seriously. In my presence he can not stop feeling and growl and look around ... he said things that made me afraid. Not that I'm afraid of him, I know Kiba I will never hurt, but that make me afraid of what might happen if his remarks é ; taient true.
Neji is nice to me, I regret having to suffer its brand. I try as much as possible to prevent it from activating and make him suffer, but I discovered he still felt the work is done on it. He did his best to protect me and he is very concerned about my injury. It never ceases to wonder whether they still make me suffer. I think I failed to conceal that it was still sensitive, but do not worry-neechan Neji, it's not so bad. I can tolerate worse than that yet.
I come to the stage to make a heartbreaking decision with what is happening now. I'm torn between my responsibility and my heart. I love Neji, I could not deny this, but I do not love him like I would have love to follow what was charged when I was three. If I really have no choice, I will join my life to hers, but I know that this marriage will make us both miserable. Not that we do not like and we will make us suffer, but the love between us is not that kind of love. It is a love family, he is a big brother to me. It is a love of trust and support. No love for husband and wife do all the heirs as my father would like. I also know that Neji would follow orders if this is what we objected, but he does not feel like I kind of love there for me. We will both be sad to learn responsible for the sadness of the other by this union.
Kiba ... him I have always greatly admired. Nobody understood him, but I could see what was causing his problem was the demon he could not control. He was never violent or mean to me, I could quickly get close to him and tame his demon order to allow Kiba to take precedence over the latter. I could help him find help for learning to control it and I always help as much as I could and encouraged if only he could continue. We are generally opposed to the behavior for the fact that I'm very quiet, shy and have no confidence in me as Kiba he is very active, not at all shy and believes in him. We complement each other well through our differences because I can calm down and control Kiba when it gets too noisy or active and can defend me and encourage me to express myself by silencing others when I try to speak for I do not get discouraged.
able to choose who I want to do my life, it is certain that I will answer Kiba. I'm sure I'd be happy with him and he will also be with me. It will also be a great father for our future children. I know it prevents me never to see Neji, he likes even if it is a bit too serious and calm at times, but I know they could get along together if one day they go to the trouble of knowing. More time passes, their differences seem to fade and leave. A few years ago it would have been hell to get both sets at their chickenpox and yet when it happened they are fairly well understood. Neji is still upset and discouraged at times by his behavior, but Kiba realized that Neji was important for me and he no longer posed a threat. He even did his best to help him during his illness.
I wish I could follow my heart, but I do not know if one day I could make my own decisions. I believe to be condemned for eternity to follow orders from others for my own safety and that of others. I will not deny my destiny to suffer if Neji and cause his death. I must be strong and accept my fate as it is, even if it is difficult . By cons, nothing can help but dream about what could be my life if I could take as I wish.
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